My Stats and Daily Caloric Intake + Exercise for the Day! ... Oh ya, and WEIGHT.

May 15, 2006

I am NOT doing too well at this juggling game of life.  Today I got online and received an e-mail from my nutritionist that I had missed our appt. ast week! Damn it!!! So I wrote an e-mail back explaining and apologizing and asking to reschedule... THEN I get this call from my family doctor --not the weight doctor i have been seeing for my thyroid, mind you (they had recently done another blood test on my-but right after i had taken a thryoid pill!)--so they call me up and are like "We need to see you ASAP because this shows your thyroid is now OVERACTIVE and that's not good.  We need you to come in." And I'm like "Wha?" So I call my weight doctor... and she explains what happened and it's completely logical and that I shouldn't go off of my thyroid!... So of course, I'm going to listen to the one who wants me thin, not generic thyroid levels.  They make sure I'm healthy too! Furthermore... I am supposed to receive a phone call from my employer today hiring me for the job I interviewed for last week--she said FOR SURE she would call me today because all they were waiting on was my background check to go through.  SO... it's almost 4 p.m. NO PHONE CALL. Uh-uh... so I called and left a message saying I went out and was checking that I hadn't missed your call, etc. and THEY STILL HAVEN'T CALLED ME BACK! Gr. ANYWAYS........ So now I'm rescheduling and scheduling doctor's appointments without knowing whether I am going to work or not, nor knowing my schedule... and furthermore---I'M STILL FAT! AAAAAaaarrggghhh!!!!!

That's life for ya.

STATS:

180 lbs

L: bowl of whole wheat pasta and tomato sauce

Well, at least I have lost 5 lbs. Neato!

May 3, 2006

So I just finished my first final of finals week in ten minutes.  Lol.  Now that's what I call EASY.  As for now, I am chilling in the library listening to a recording of "Letter from Ana."  It's a great inspiration to not eat!  You should try it.  Just get a copy of "Letter from Ana," --I'll post it soon enough.  And voice record it with a recorder and listen to it OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.  It helps. 

Anyways, I forgot to weigh in this morning but I go to my Nutritionist in a few hours.  Yippee.  She'll help me lose wieght faster.  :)  Pills I've taken today?  Thyroid, Appetite suppressant, Vitamin B6, Liquid Vitamin B12, Chromium, 2 Thinspa (or whatever it's called--the red pills), and 2 Calcium w/ Vitamin D pills. 

Okeedokee, I'm out.  Later!

May 2, 2006

Today I was a complete fat pig and I didn't even work out.  I f***ing suck.  I weighed in at 185 lbs this morning.  I've been on this diet for four weeks and haven't budged.  I do have a thyroid disorder and all... but somehow I still feel that this is all my fault.  And my dad won't get off my ass about being fat either.  I hate that heffer.

Food:

B-poptart

L-10 pizza bites

S-cheese,ham,bacon bits, and olives salad (protein salad)

D-6 pizza bites

S-An ounce of Ice Cream

Is that not PATHETIC!? i deserve to be f***ing CUT.  Yes.  I shall.  Tonight.